Has it really been almost 4 years since I was last here? I can't even begin to recap 4 years at once so I will have to fill in the gaps a little at a time.
The biggest news of late...Trace is taller than me. It finally happened. The day after I measured him, I ran across the following article and it really resonated with me.
http://www.scarymommy.com/growing-up-saying-goodbye/
"It seems like he shot up taller than my 5 feet 9 inches in a week, and suddenly he has a deeper voice and a different laugh and even different ways of thinking."
Yesterday was the day. We measured him 30 days ago and I was taller. But not anymore. He was so proud when he turned around and saw that mark on the wall! As he beamed, I smiled on the outside, but on the inside I was willing it not to happen.
I've always hoped he would be taller than me, but I just wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to let go of the boy that he was, to make way for the man he is becoming. His being taller is just an everyday reminder of all the things he no longer needs me for. He can reach things that I can't. He can open jars that I can't. He can lift things that I can't. It's the way things are supposed to happen, I know, but that doesn't make it easier. He will celebrate this milestone with making short jokes at my expense and in a bittersweet way, I'll be grateful for every one...
This picture was taken Jan 2, 2016. Chad had to get a level to really tell who was taller. Then by Feb 2, he had passed me up! Such a bittersweet day for me. But that's what kids are supposed to do. One benefit to his taller height...he stands next to me a lot more than he did before. I don't care if it is just to rub it in. I'll take it.